Two2

"In my heart you'll always know

There is a place only you can go"

I never knew there was a hole in my heart until the two of you filled it. I never knew that two of you multiplied the size of my heart and love in equal measure.

Happy 2nd birthday to my sweet Jilli GiGi Bean Beans and my Lyla YaYa Beans. We love you so much.

Bullet Point Monday

• Found out G was placed at Parma for Westerns school of choice. This was our last choice and extremely inconvenient. To say I am bummed is an understatement. Back to square one. Which is frustrating. Unless we can find someone to drive her from Parma to Concord everyday. Any takers? Or we stay in our 1200 square ft house in the city for the rest of our lives and send them to private school. UGH
• Being a working mom really sucks sometimes. Not that staying home is all unicorns and rainbows. I try not to let work come first but sometimes it has too and that is difficult as a mother. Thank goodness for amazing grandparents who step in when we can't. And beer. 
• Jillian has taken to yelling "Gooooo! Goooooooo!!!" at stop lights or stop signs or anytime we are stopped in the car. Perhaps I should cool it on the road rage. 
• The twins have also started saying Please and Thank You. Pretty much the cutest ever. "Peeease" & "Tank Ew". Such polite little tornadoes. 
• Beautiful weather we have been having here in the mitten. Soaking up all that sun at the lake. We are so lucky to have it as an outlet and feel like we are on vacation when we are there. Forget about laundry, expense reports, and all the other crap that is staring me in the face at home. I figure life it short, go to the lake. 

• Sharing continues to be an issue for the twins. A constant battle in fact. Adam and I can't help but laugh at how ridiculous they are sometimes. Lyla being the little pit bull she is and Jilli playing the part of drama queen. Wowzers. Grace is the mediator. That child is either going to be a social worker or international terrorist negotiator :)
• I have done 2 professional photography sessions in the last couple of months. A newborn and a one year old. I was nervous but they were so much fun to photograph. It makes me feel a bit vulnerable, putting my "art" out there

• We go on vacation to Glen Arbor and the Sleeping Bear Dunes in 2 weeks. My in-laws have rented 2 houses close to Lake Michigan. So excited and hope we have a good week with hot weather. 
• Jilli goes back on Thursday for her check up on her leg. I am hoping she is all healed up and can get that big cast off and enjoy the rest of the summer
• My babies are turning 2. How did this happen? They are so much fun. Full of personality and better able to communicate with us. Parenting twins (especially toddler twins) is a challenge but like most things the rewards are so worth it
• Grace told me she missed school today. Is this child mine? She has completed about half of her giant Kindergarten work book at nana's house. She is also going to take gymnastics and swim lessons this summer. She likes to be busy. In that way I know she is mine :)

That's it for my random thoughts! Happy Monday!!

Broken Leg Baby

We did not have the best of memorial day weekends. It started with a policeman at my door Friday morning reporting my car had been broken into in my driveway. Bye bye purse and laptop. Who is the big dummy that left it in the car? Oh that would be me. Would you believe me if I said I never do that? Probably not. But its true. The one time...ugh. What a mess canceling credit cards and getting a new drivers license. Scary that it happened in our driveway with my 3 children inside. People are desperate, its so sad. They got nothing of value to them being that I had no cash and my laptop is password locked and they had no power cord. Hopefully they got something out of throwing a paving stone through my window.

Saturday we went to a birthday party for Grant and then a BBQ at the Barczaks. We had not even been there a half hour and Jillian took a tumble off their play structure that is about 6 ft in the air. Don went running and I was close behind. It did not look good and Jillian was crying in pain. I thought she would be okay until I was looking her over and noticed her ankle looked weird. Kind of sticking out deformed weird. Off to the ER we went. Katie (God bless her) joined me while Adam stayed behind with the girls. Walking in to the Express care Katie's flip flop breaks so she is walking around with one shoe and one bare foot. On germ laden hospital floors. Comic relief :) We were all a hot mess.

I held it together until they showed me the x-ray which clearly showed a break in BOTH her Tibia and Fibula clean through and that it was slightly displaced. It was physical pain seeing my baby's broken bone. I felt like a terrible mom. I have one job and that is to keep my children safe and I FAILED. I burst into tears while the doctor tried to console me but all I heard was "fracture, displaced, need to see and orthopedic surgeon first thing Tuesday". I clung to Jillian and told her I was sorry. Katie (again, God bless her) tried to make us feel better. The put her in a hard splint and we headed home.

It was a long weekend waiting for Tuesday morning. We kept Jillian pretty looped up on Tylenol with codeine for the first 24 hours. It was difficult seeing her so out of it. But better for her not to be in pain. Tuesday I called U of M first thing to see a pediatric orthopedic surgeon and hoped that my friend Lyndsay who is an orthopedic PA was right that she wouldn't need surgery. They took another x-ray and determined that the fracture would realign itself and she would be in a long leg cast for 2-3 weeks. This is  an injury in an adult that would require surgery with pins and a MUCH longer recovery period. It really is true that kids are resilient. I was sooooo relieved. And also got a healthy dose of reality being in Motts children's hospital with parents who are dealing with much more difficult and permanent things than we were. Counting our blessings.

Jilli has been so brave and good natured through this whole thing. She let the doctors help her without complaint and has good naturedly looked on while her sisters run and play. She is just so darn sweet. She figured out quickly how to scoot on her butt or crawl and she hasn't let a little thing like a long leg cast slow her down too much :)